Dahhh…

Today I started reading a book called “Life After God.”  I’m already half way through it.  That’s partly because it’s a small book and there aren’t many words on each page.  But partly it’s because it speaks to me so much.  This page reads almost as if I wrote it myself and sorta sums up how I’ve been feeling lately….

I am a quiet man. I tend to think things through and try not to say too much. But here I am, saying perhaps too much. But there are these feelings inside me which need badly to escape, I guess. And this makes me feel relieved because one of my big concerns these past few years is that I’ve been losing my ability to feel things with the same intensity– the way I felt when I was younger.  It’s scary–to feel your emotions floating away and just not caring. I guess what’s really scary is not caring about the loss. I guess this is what your mother is responding to. I make a note in my mind to talk about this with her.

From Life After God. page 150